“Great deliverances and triumphs gives He to His king; and He shows mercy and steadfast love to His anointed, to David and his offspring forever.” Psalms 18:50 (Amplified)
I surrendered my life to the Lord at the young age of 12 while at a church revival. At that meeting I came face to Face with the intense love of Jesus in a way that I had never experienced before. I was never the same. I went from being timid to being bold and confident. I went from mostly keeping to myself to telling everyone I knew about the Lord. God has done a work in me through the years and just when I began to feel like I had this Christian thing down-packed, just when it appeared nothing could shake me and nothing could get me off track, I had a nervous breakdown and tried to end my life. Sitting in a mental hospital, all I could do was weep and wonder, “How in the world did I get here? Me, of all people? How did I let this happen?” My head was hung low, my mind all in a fog, and my heart felt broken to pieces. All I could hear was the taunts and torments of the enemy, telling me who I wasn’t and that God didn’t love me anymore. The enemy tempts us, then when we give in to the temptation, he torments us. My life was under severe attack, but God. I tell you, but God. He restored me. Now I am sitting here in my right mind, alive and well, and thankful for God’s great grace, intense love, rich mercy, and His delivering power. Great deliverance He gives to His kings and He shows mercy to His anointed. God loves you so intensely. If you only knew. Nothing can separate you from His love. It’s unending and everlasting. You may feel like you don’t deserve His love because of what you did, but God’s love isn’t based on anything we’ve done or haven’t done. It’s based solely on Christ. He looks at you and sees Jesus. Receive His love. Depend on Him. Know that you are not alone in your pressing. You are not alone on the narrow road. You are not alone in the fight of faith. Stay encouraged.
Prayer: Father, thank You for delivering me and healing me. Just the fact that I am still here is a true testament of Your love and mercy. I bless You and surrender to You. I choose You all over again. Have Your way in me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.