“Behold, the hour cometh, yea, is now come, that ye shall be scattered, every man to his own, and shall leave me alone: and yet I am not alone, because the Father is with me.” John 16:32
Do you have a fear of abandonment? I realized I did. I surrounded myself with people and did things for people in order to win their faithfulness. I gave all of myself to my relationships hoping that it would cause people to want to stay in my life. When I got alone with God, He began to reveal to me that I had a fear of abandonment and a codependency upon people. It was the root of my frustration and hurt. He asked me, “What would you do if everyone left you? Would you be able to function and move forward in life?” He asked, “What if every friend that you have invested yourself into left you? Would your world come crashing down or will you go on in My purpose and plans?” Tears began to fall because I realized I couldn’t handle the thought of being left alone. He began to show me that in Jesus’ final hour all of His disciples left Him. After all of the miracles He had done, after all of the great teachings, after all of the heart to heart talks with His right hand guys, there was nothing He could do to make them stay with Him. There’s nothing you can do to make people stay with you. They are in your life by choice and they are free to choose not to stay. When faced with feelings of abandonment, what brought Jesus comfort was knowing that the Father was with Him. God is with you and He’s not going anywhere. Enjoy your relationships, but place your trust in the faithfulness of God.
Prayer: Father, I thank You for revealing this to me. I have feared abandonment. I pray you deliver me from this fear and break every codependency I have in my life. Help me to be ok with being left alone with just you and I. I rely on Your faithfulness. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
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